It's been a few weeks since I've been on here. I've been trying to spend more time offline lately, and when I am on, I gravitate towards Sisters 'N Cloth. But my heart wants to share all of the things on my mind...and that's only possible here. Well, not only possible, but I feel safer here.
We've been getting by lately. Drew is still looking for a part-time position that will help pay our bigger bills. So far, either God has made it impossible for certain jobs to go through (applications only on Internet and Drew couldn't get the online application to work) or Drew has felt such a strong feeling of, "NO! This isn't right!" that he hasn't applied. I even held a job for a day. Then quit because I didn't have a peace about it (read: I was freaking out so badly that I couldn't eat).
We've been looking, searching, and praying for a job. We've also had our faith tested more than once (okay, it's more of an ongoing thing.) We've seen God pull through and work miracles. Not always in the way we'd like, but they're miracles nonetheless.
For example, Abby has needed more diapers. My sister-in-law bought a box of diapers for $20...and there were some girly prints that she passed on to Abby and me. As well as a one-size cover. And a wool cover. And lots of inserts. I had been praying for God to provide them...but I never expected so very much!!
Another example is that Abby has needed clothes. In her size. Not only did I have a friend from college send me several outfits, but my mom also bought her some sweet outfits this past weekend. (Of course, we totally skipped the 6-9 month outfits, but I'm ok with that!)
Needless to say, though we've been worried and scared and stressed, He has been faithful.
This morning, we found that our water heater has been leaking. Probably for a while. And now Abby's carpeted floor is soaked. But we called the maintenance man. And hopefully we won't have to replace the water heater. And God once again showed us His grace and His mercy because the wires to the water heater had been in standing water...
Logically, we should have been fried. But the only "damage" done has been the soaked carpet and wet clothes/shoes that were in the closet. God is so gracious!! Once again, I'm amazed at His love and His care.
Just an hour or so ago, I was worried about damage and the repairs...about how could we even begin to expect them to fix it when we can't pay rent...and now I'm just thankful to be alive!
Perspective really does change our attitude.
I know I'm rambling (and it's pretty bad, too), but I guess what I'm getting at is that though we are faithless, He remains faithful. When we're scared, He already has a plan in place. When we fall, He not only watched us but He's waiting to pick us back up again. He already knows that we don't have it all together...so why do we hide it from Him? He knows our weakest points and our strongest. That's why He says that His grace is sufficient, for His strength is made perfect in weakness.
May I always be reminded of my weaknesses...